I’m posting the critique portion of a performance where I revealed my online identity for the first time in a performance art critique at my Art University. Several years ago, I would have never ever thought I’d do something like this. I was really nervous during the whole performance and there was definitely more that I wanted to say but choked up out of nervousness. You guys helped give me the strength to expose myself to my class and to stand up for everything our room is and who I am.
You all gave me the strength to feel confident about what this room means to me and what I do. My room is a place where I can stay true to myself and also became where I can spend my time with people I can call my friends.
This took a lot for my colleagues to understand because of the labels given simply from being on a porn site. But my experiences as an online streamer helped me reinvent what it means to be in my body. MFC became a outlet for my feminity and sexuality, and also allowed my creativity to run wild. If it were not for the support from you guys, I wouldn’t be able to be where I am now- both morally, and intellectually. And after the class was given a chance to be a part of our room, they began to realize and understand the complexity of how , as one of my colleagues described, “tight-knit” our community is.
You guys made it possible to turn this little space on the internet, into my own. You guys gave me the strength to not feel shameful because you all are what makes my room unique and allows all of what makes this possible… All of the time you have spent with me thus far has been unbelievable and I promise to continue giving back and showing you all how much you really mean to me. It’s because of you guys that I am not afraid to be me. MFC is a sacred place for me where I can coincide with people who love and support me and where I feel free and unjudged.
I hope to continue inspiring you guys, the same way you all have inspired me.